That Friday Feeling

Monday night earlier this week I was battling with myself. Now I’m at the end of the week and I feel so different again. I’m not totally ‘up’ like I was in the second week but I feel good. Still calm, content and most importantly like I won’t drink.

I watched all the Christmas revellers tonight as I walked from work to the train station through the middle of town. People excited to be heading to pubs and restaurants. Folk just chatting and drinking at the open air bars in the Christmas market. It was busy and buzzing. I did feel a little like I was missing out on something and maybe that is understandable this early on in my journey. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t standing with my nose pressed up against the window staring at a glass of red wine. I just felt a bit ‘on the outside’.

But, and here’s the rub, it didn’t make me feel anxious, sad or lonely. My usual FOMO reaction didn’t kick in. I quite enjoyed the Christmassy atmosphere and was glad to see so many people out having fun. My night was home, AF G&T and a Chinese takeout. I’m ok with that. All small steps, all adding up to help me climb to the place where I want to be.

I’m changing my life one day at a time with challenges and mini break-throughs each day. I’m doing it with the help of some truly lovely people on here and I’m so thankful I found you. 😁

Happy Weekend Sober buds

Claire xx

Published by clairei47

My name is Claire. I am a mum, a wife and I work for the NHS. For as long as I can remember I have drank alcohol and my relationship with it has become increasingly complex over recent years. I’m 47 and I want to be physically and mentally healthy. I want to be present in my life and enjoy the journey, not drown it out with wine and hangovers. I have decided to detail how things progress via this blog. I know nothing about blogging but I think support from others is essential. Maybe one day I can help someone with my story. I started my sober journey on 17th November 2019; long may it continue.

19 thoughts on “That Friday Feeling

  1. Well said. You’re not missing out, you’ve already bin there and dun that, and discovered along the way that despite the glitz and glitter the boozy environment presents, it bites you more than it blesses you. That – and this one helps me, given my age and stage of life (60) – “To everything there is a season”. Some things aren’t meant to go on the same forever, although we wish they could! Well done tonight, Claire (still Friday night for me). (((((Hugs))))))💜

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  2. yaaaay well done Claire !!! FOMO is a bitch and remembering that we’re not actually missing out on anything, just imagining/idealizing, helps me a lot. yay to seber Xmas markets!! Must try that out this month 🙂 xxx Anne

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  3. i went back and looked at my post when i was at 3 weeks. I had just gone to probably my 5th AA meeting and it went terribly.One of the members was very judgmental and i was very angry when i left. But my final determination was “….its still a process. Im letting that thing go because its just one person and who cares.He is allowed his perspective and opinion. I don’t have to agree.The best thing though about today is when i woke up i was actually RELIEVED that i didn’t have to drink today and that i didn’t even want to..weird…so- there’s THAT…Namaste”
    Keep going Claire…I had a low point the past 2 nights and i just read tonight some words that helped me .” Recovery isn’t a straight line” and ” your lowest points are your turning points.” I needed to hear it, even 11 months in…

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