This is a really quick post to let all you lovely people know that I’m ok. Yesterday was an awful day but I survived and I’m a teeny bit calmer this morning.
Thank you for all your amazing comments, support and love yesterday. I can’t tell you how much your kindness helped and how much it meant to have you all here. I was going to delete the post because I felt slightly embarrassed and self pitying but I’ve decided to leave it there. I think it’s important to read the comments when I feel that way again and to remind myself that, no matter how scary it was at the time, I got through it. It may help someone who stumbles across it and connects with the emotions and distress. So it will stay.
Thanks to you all once again. You really are the most amazing group of people. Your love and care for me yesterday was palpable.
I’m still here
Love Claire x
I’m glad you feel a bit better, and I hope you don’t continue to feel embarrassed by your post. I don’t think there’s anything to be embarrassed about. I’m so glad you reached out! ❤️🤗❤️
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Thank you lovely. And thank you for the email. It was exactly what I needed. Xx
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The stumbles are as important to recognize as the successes. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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That’s very true. X
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I missed your post yesterday Claire and have only just read it. I think you were really brave to post and definitely leave it up – it will help people I’m sure and I’m so glad you’re feeling better today – take care my friend xxx💞💞💞
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Thanks DGS. I’m still shaky and fragile but I’m a lot better than I was. I’m up and I have been outside today which is more than can be said for the last few days. Xx
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Do whatever feels right for you 💞💞
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I’ll try. Xxx
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yes yes yes to leaving the post up! It’ll help countless others who might be going through the same thing! ❤ oh, and I'm SO GLAD You are feeling better ❤ xxxx Anne
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Thanks Anne. I’m feeling a little shaken up and fragile right now but I have been out for a walk/run and I’ve even driven over to see a friend and we sat in her garden and talked for a couple of hours. It’s helped so much just getting out. I’d really don’t want to start taking the antidepressants again as there has been a lot to deal with this last couple of weeks and I want to see if I can learn to manage without. I’m not sure though. Xx
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Yes, going out and getting a change of scenery really can do wonders 🙂 I completely understand and think that’s a great decision. You’ll see how you feel in a little bit. Either way: there is no shame in 1) feeling intense emotions when we have just stopped anti-depressants and/or 2) being on anti-depressants. Both are perfectly ok ❤ We are the only ones setting these unbelievably high standards for ourselves 🙂 xxx Anne
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Indeed we are Anne. I need to find a way to accept things are as they are and stop expecting so much of myself. ❤️💕🤗
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Hang in there. Things will pick up soon as things settle down again. x
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I’m hoping so. X
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Oh Claire I’m so happy to read you are doing better. I hope today it’s slowly getting even better….I missed your first post. I’ve been incredibly busy with work and a lot of what you wrote reminds me of my daughter. Along with anxiety she suffers from body dysmorphia. It’s been quite a hard time trying to help her. Keep fighting and so glad you posted your first post. I really feel for you!! Much, much love to you!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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The impact on people close to you and who love when you are struggling is huge. I know I’m not in control of my emotions and my thoughts are often unreasonable when I experienced a particularly bad episode like I did on Friday. I can see how something like body dysmorphia might link in. Logic flies out of the window. It’s scary and I feel for you and your daughter.
On a positive, I was still shaky over the weekend but I have had a much better day today. I’m still tense and uptight, I can sense it, but my head felt clearer than it has for a while. I’m going I try some CBT techniques to try and address the thoughts and feelings that trigger the anxiety.
Lovely to hear from you. Sending love to you and your daughter 😘 xx ❤️💕
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I sure hope the CBT techniques help you! A lot of my clients are using CBT oil so I’m thinking it must be beneficial. ( I’ve never asked them about it but have seen it at their houses ) It is all very scary and I see how my daughter is being so irrational, but can’t help it. It’s been a few days in. No relief yet. I don’t think it helps with her being 17 years old. I’m not sure she can rationalize that her thoughts are uncontrolled. Again, thanks for sharing what your going through. I am sure hoping you keep feeling better. 😘😘😘
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I sure hope things settle for her soon. My heart goes out to her. Anxiety is a very irrational thing. Xxx
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Claire
I just read and commented on your last post, so great to read that you are feeling much better now. Well done for feeling you could share how you felt and got support on here. Onwards and Upwards! Hope you can get back to your yoga! Jim X
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I’m still doing yoga most days. It’s been much more of a struggle recently because I have felt so physically unwell with the mental stress. Sometimes it’s all too much. X
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