It’s just past midnight here and I’ve put out the presents, set the table with crackers etc and it’s all looking very festive. I’m excited for my boys to see and open their presents in the morning and I’m actually really looking forward to a day of total R&R.
I’ve had a bit of a tough time emotionally these past few days. I won’t go into the detail. It isn’t really relevant. What I have learnt is this: when I am not drowning out the difficult stuff with alcohol, the pain feels intense and raw but it actually can be managed and dealt with. The anxiety and sadness don’t overwhelm me like I have always feared they will. The feelings come and they go; they ebb and flow. When I drank, those feeling were numbed for a short while but then they became cemented, entrenched and part of my make up. I could never shake them off like I can now. This is a really important lesson for me to have learnt. If I sit with the emotions I don’t like, they will eventually pass.
So, as I turn out the light and look forward to my second sober Christmas Day, I am once again reminded that kicking the drink has given me many gifts. I am so grateful for them all.
Happy Christmas to my lovely blogging community. You are awesome.
Claire x
Merry Christmas.
It is a time of intense emotions. Some of mine have been hard too. I guess that means we care deeply.
Anne
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I guess it does Anne. Hope you are ok. We are doing this sober which is so important. Merry Christmas to you too x
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Merry Christmas to you too! Here’s to finally being done 2020 🙂
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Indeed x
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Merry Christmas, Claire❤️🤗
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Merry Christmas to you too Dwight. 💕💕
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Merry Christmas, Claire. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been feeling out of sorts. It is a tough time right now. I’m so glad a new year is around the corner. ❤️
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It has been so tricky hasn’t it? I’m doing ok and I actually feel stronger because I am sober and can see the light even when it’s a bit gloomy! Xxx
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I hope you’re having a lovely R&R Christmas!
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Thanks Ashley. It’s incredibly relaxed. No pressure, no having to do things by a certain time. It’s lovely. Wishing you a lovely day too x
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Thank you! 💕
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Merry Christmas! Have a fabulous day with your family and enjoy your R& R. 🙂
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You too lovely. Have a fab day xxx
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🤗💜🤓
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Merry Christmas, Claire!
We got 9 inches of snow yesterday!
xo
Wendy
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Wow! Lovely. Can’t wait to see the photos. Merry Christmas to you xxx
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Happy Christmas, Claire. I hope you have a lovely day with your family.💕🎄🌟
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Thanks you Collette. It’s been very peaceful and lovely so far. Wishing you a lovely Christmas too. Sending love 💕💕💕
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Happy Christmas awesome one ❤️
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Happy Christmas to you, most righteous awesome Dude ❤️
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Well done you x
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Thanks so much. 😊
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yay! happy holidays to you all and keep fighting the good fight..you are doing woderfully!
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Just thought I’d wish you another happy Christmas and new year. Gives me an excuse to send you a hug. x
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You don’t need an excuse. Thanks though, I really appreciate it xx 🤗
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And it’s not New Year yet! X
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Hi Claire!! So good to see you and the other sober warriors!! Looking to get back here- just been so resistant to writing anything. Even journaling. Learning to sit with all the emotions is key…. the more I try to resist, the stronger and more unpleasant they seem to become. I’m also working on building myself a “container”- an image of a beautiful clay pot inside me where I can keep them if they arise inconveniently – been oh so helpful in keeping from discharging my crap into the world. It’s def been a roller coaster year. Wonderful post! You sound solid, sister!!
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Happy Xmas Claire! (Sorry for the late comment!) I hope you had a beautiful Christmas Day. I always think of England at this time of year because we’re probably the only ones in France to do crackers, Xmas cake and pudding, and follow Delia religiously all throughout the prep on the 25th 🙂 Also, the lesson you mention in this post is probably one of the most important ones I have ever learnt in my life, and continue to learn anew, every – single – day – 🙂 happy new Year and big bug hugs to you and your family ❤ xoxoxo Anne
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Happy New Year to you too Anne. Hope all went ok over Xmas for you. Email me with the gossip … ♥️♥️
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