Approaching the end of day 6 and I’m feeling really solid at the moment. I’m tired and eating far more than I have in ages but I’m telling myself this is all part of the process. I’ve noticed my skin very slowly starting to feel softer to touch and not look so pale and wan. I know restarting my sober life was totally the right decision for me and I’m grateful I had this blog and my friends here to reach out to.

I haven’t managed to maintain my daily yoga and exercise but that’s also ok. I can only do so much in the early days of being newly sober. On Wednesday evening I cancelled a yoga class simply because I had a bad day. I felt really low and burst into tears when I walked in the door after work. I was exceptionally tired due to broken sleep every night for almost a week. This was initially due to too much alcohol in my system, and latterly due to abstaining from alcohol. Bloody alcohol!! I decided to take a bath, read and watch some good tv. I calmed down and I slept well and hey bingo, the next morning I felt just fine. I know a week ago that would have been a bottle of wine (or more) drank, possibly things said or done I shouldn’t have said or done, and a terrible sleep … again! Look at me, making better choices already. I am grateful for that.

I haven’t reached the fluffy pink cloud stage. I may never achieve it. But to be honest, this stage is fine. I already feel my mind is calmer and I am looking forward to a weekend of gym classes, yoga, coffee with friends and getting shit done.

I am under no illusion that there are going to be really challenging days and occasions. Right now, this is exactly where I want to be. Friday evening, chilling on my sofa, with a cup of tea and a blanket to keep me cosy. I’m truly very grateful for that.

Love Claire x


18 thoughts on “Gratitude”

    1. I did it for almost 2 1/2 years, convinced myself I could moderate! How hard can it be right? Very hard it seems 😂. I know how good sobriety can feel, even when it’s challenging, and I’m focused on that. Thanks for your comment x

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  1. This sounds so great Claire ! It’s incredible the difference that a good night’s sleep can make in terms of mental health (just feeling ok and being able to regulate emotions ). I’ve started napping this year to deal with the lack of sleep caused by my work schedule and it really helps. Great to hear you’re doing good on day 6! Xxx Anne

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    1. God sleep is so important! And only when I have taken alcohol away for 4 days to I realise what it’s like to actually sleep soundly!! I’m also a huge fan of napping. Xx

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    1. Yep, I don’t think I really had them on my previous stint but I still loved sobriety! Thanks … heading towards my first week and I’m loving feeling back under control again

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      1. Actually, during my first long stint of 5 months I did feel very calm and grounded — more so than any of the other times. That period also included going to decaf coffee and also quitting sugar. The combination was very wonderful. I’ll get back to that possibly some day…

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      2. Agreed. I tried no caffeine but I felt so physically ill I couldn’t manage it. I try to have decaf as much as possible. Once I’m more stable in sobriety I’ll try cutting out the sugar. The lesser know evil .. sugar!


  2. I’m so glad to hear how well you are doing! I’m having some cravings, but hanging in there. Day 7! Yeah, I can’t commit to the yoga yet it seems. Just no booze will have to be enough. It is nice to feel calm and in control again, I agree! xx

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    1. Agree … I think if I do yoga it’s a bonus .. but sobriety is my no 1 priority at the moment. The rest can wait. Glad you are hanging on. Message me if you need to xx

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